Today is coming to an end. It's been a good day. I got permission to leave my house and go to a surprise party that I've been helping to plan and run a photo booth for. My husband was amazing and helped and made it possible to go. He's now spending some time with his guy friends having a gaming party. I'll see him tomorrow and I'm glad he has good friends to hang out with, but I'm sad he's not here at this moment. It hit me hard that at midnight it is the EDD of my dear Rory. My first ectopic pregnancy, but my third lost child. It's very possible I would have already given birth, or would be still waiting, but today (clock just changed to 12) I remember Rory Tatum.
Rory I never meet you, I never held you in my arms, but I love you and I miss you. I wish I could be selfish and take you away from Heaven and bring you to this earth, but I can't. Why would you want to leave?
I find it ironic that Oct. 14 was your EDD and Oct. 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day (the whole month actually is) and 7 PM many will be lighting their candles. I plan on lighting candles for my babies. Please share your pictures and names if you want. If you share with me I plan on somehow taking the pictures and names and creating a collage to share later this month. You can email those to firstname.lastname@example.org with a subject line of Oct. 15.
For today I remember Rory Tatum. I love you and one day we will be together.